I’ve been avoiding the thoughts
avoiding the pain, the anger, the words
diving into mindless video games
headfirst into projects that could wait
nothing too easy
that would leave me time to think
social media is addictive
but not today
and not tomorrow
my feeds are just funhouse mirrors of my own pain
and I’m trying to avoid that
but i can’t sleep in bed tonight
in my own home
without thinking
they’d justify my death too